Saturday, February 27, 2010 ♥
TIME CHECK : 3 am.
I am sleepy.. but i just get myself to bed. I mean, i am on my bed, but i just cudden sleep.. Instead i am facebooking since 11 pm just now.
I am going to stop waiting and carry on with my dailies like i used to. I need not need guys to please me cause i still have my darlings around with me. I know i aint this weak to persevere the loneliness.
Well, that someone come and go just like nobody's business. I hate it though. Things never go the way it should be.
Im eyeing on this flip flops at CHECK and SPORTSLINK .
I want the adidas sandal please.
URGH! i cant wait for my next pay which idk how much.
But obviously more then last month's pay.
I cant wait semestral exams to end.
Then, i know, he need me no more.
=))
im forcing to draw this smile...
bye.
@ 10:55 AM
Wednesday, February 24, 2010 ♥
At last, i could sleep all the way till afternoon before i heard mummy's voice, "KAAAKAAAAAKK!" haha.
She yelled me out of bed. Really lor. Then woke up and dragged my feet to the loo and bath. Then shushu sayang called. She ajak me watch wayang but got tuition in the afternoon so we lepak at my place. And she siap like pengantin. So lambat.
She waited for me so sweetly at macdonalds and we have our late lunch at KFC with hanisah mother. Then she hantar me go rc to study with wan.
EPC is killing me.
Therefore, most of time, i stared at the question.
Lucky POON want to help.
If not, all tawakal only.
I got irritated by this guy on FB. Someone that i knew from school uh. He wan act good. Never hold girl lah, never touch girl lah, but with my own eyes, i saw him hugging a girl lor. Stupid kan.
No comment lah kan. Tu dier punyer pasal.
I cant wait for date with sufiah dol.
okk, bye bye.
@ 8:58 AM
Sunday, February 21, 2010 ♥
I am really penat lah. If never work, i got tuition for the kids. No tuition i must study. No everything, must go training. PENAT OI!
Am i overwerking? No lah kan..
My post nowadays like very tk senonoh.
I know, tkda mood. But, i still want to blog.
We are seriously drifting.
No late night calls and messages.
Maybe, he found someone better.
I simply cant stop telling him, that, its not him i talked about in any of my post, MSN or facebook. Just best of luck in whatever you do.
Time for me to move on..
Well, i miss your goodnight wish, friend.
AND!
i think i miraculously found a partner to do blogshop.
kan fyda....?
HAHAH
@ 8:14 AM
Saturday, February 20, 2010 ♥
Final semester exam time table.How dead am i going to be..?
Very dead.
Wish me lots of luck.
And i am giving in to EPC.
WOHOOOOOO~~
I am thinking to open a blog shop and sell off all of my clothings that i wore once only.
Plus, that may add some credit to my account for some daily expenses kan..??
but, i need models, photographer and ALOT OF HELP.
HAHAH
anyone willing..???
@ 7:22 AM
Friday, February 19, 2010 ♥
DILEMMA
bye.
@ 8:37 AM
Thursday, February 18, 2010 ♥
I have two wishes to make
1) I want peace.
2) I want more time for studies.
CAN?
Okbye.
@ 8:28 AM
Wednesday, February 17, 2010 ♥
Please, don't leave me hanging without your text or calls.
Cause i know, i am gonna miss you alot.
I am taking bigger steps then yours.
Goodbye,love.
@ 8:43 AM
Tuesday, February 16, 2010 ♥
Yesterday afternoon was spent solely on work. Boring. Not much customers. But still, loads of complains. I did cashiering, tele-pharmacy. Basically, yesterday work was so relaxing that i could not get hold of how many yawns i yawned. HAHA. I wasted my time doing cashiering, purposely irritate customers with my slow pace of work, no smiling, no plus selling. And when there is no customer, i read magazine. HAHA. I wonder what if that stupid old Area Manager think about if he look at the camera.
I suddenly thought of re-taking some of my o-level subjects. Like english, maths. AHHAA. I don't know why, but, yea.. Its just a sudden thought.
This four days vacation brings me closer to my family. Daddy listens to beyonce hit song, 'single ladies', then he would hum to the song and sing it as, 'i sembelit, sembelit.'
HAHAHAHAHAH. LOL.
Then, mummy cooks like no one business and make daddy and syira grow wider. Especially, daddy's round tummy. *grins*
Went to BPP with yad. He got me a wallet. Talk about some serious stuff. Then off.
Wan is back from his holidayy. Got me two lovely brooches and a pink adidas watch.
=))
OMG, i miss school.
Wierd. I know.
@ 7:50 AM
Sunday, February 14, 2010 ♥
Too much think and reflect about. Weekends are spent wisely i guess. To celebrate my brother's engagement ceremony. He might not be a biological brother to me, but we were brought up since i learn how to crawl together by our late granny on my paternal side. Hence, it is not ridiculous for me to call him abang like all younger siblings call their elder brother. AND OBVIOUSLY, his fiancee looks great and very gorgeous.
I slept over at his place to help out whatever i could. Then, this feeling of miss, of love came by. I miss late granny. Both of them. Really. Nenek is gonna be real happy to get abang ready for his ceremony. And definitely, she will be cooking for abang like she promised to me and abang last time. She said, she is going to look and cook for the two of us if we get married later. No matter how sick she is, she is going to do it for us. But then, ALLAH loves her more.
Last training, had a short sparring session. Had to fight with this poser. He kicked not on the vest but on my thigh. Freaakkking pain i tell you. Now bengkak oready. And due to the last injury on my ankle, i injured it again. Bad thing is, i think it sprained. Cause, it swells and i cudden bear my weight evenly. AND, it causes my left leg to get cramps most of the time. THEN, when i happily cut the daun pandan, i stretched my leg out and got a stapler bullet inside my left foot. How nice. It bleeds and i put mama ita to worry mode. HAHA. =))
BUT, I am STRONG. >.<
p/s: when i miss you, i re-read our conversation and smile. then i wonder, i should have met someone like you so that i won't get phobia of knowing new people.
Alot of things coming up. Plans for Silat BBQ, promotion camp for my unit. All this will be in one week. Both will be 3D2N thing. Imagine, one week not at home, mama is gonna scream! hahah.
@ 6:03 AM
Thursday, February 11, 2010 ♥
I am at the 504 Residents' Corner blogging.
Initially thought of studying at my house with my friends, but then, DISTRACTIONS . ALOT .
I am away from home just to study. Find it better to focus here. I mean, away from those distraction at home. Especially the bed, the food.
Appauled that my butt grew wider. HAHA. CAUSE, i find it hard to fit into my NPCC skirt that i have been wearing for the past 5 yrs ago! Its true lah that they say, you will get wider if you are in POLYTECHNIC cause, the rate of you involving in Physical Education is very very very low and sometimes, zero.
I did mathematics for my elective common test tommorrow. Wan came by to do his assignment two for analogue. Then, terserempak mamat. As usual lah, talk about his silat. Wad summore.
Communication Skills, Computer Programming, Semestral Project has come to its end.
No more 3 hours tutorial, no more FORMAL WEAR, no more Lim Chin Guan's hurtful remarks, no more Practical stuffs. And, that marks the dot for these modules for SEMESTER TWO in first year.
A little more to persevere if i made this through. I dun wanna repeat. Who wants?!
Thought of giving up guardian as a job since i had three students to juggle their studies. Maybe after semester break i will decide.
Wish me all the best for my elective common test tommorrow. I need something to munch on. K GTG!
@ 5:57 AM
Wednesday, February 10, 2010 ♥
Completed most assignments for my modules. But don't know can pass or not. I had put in alot of effort, just see how it goes.
I cant wait for semester exams to end. I am tired.
Alot of things to do.
Due to STRESS, PMS-ing, pimples outbreak.
URGH!
Slowly im trying to be independent enough.
Most of thing i share with him last time, i started to learn to bottle it up.
I walked from causeway to home.
Such a long time i never did that again.
then the phobia strikes me again.
I hate that house.
That house that is full of sin and alot of dirt.
I hate it alott.
As i typed this out, my hair stands on its end.
Traumatised.
@ 8:29 AM
Tuesday, February 9, 2010 ♥
Such a great day u-turn.
After school, went to popular to get my tutees book.
Then go triple 8 kfc and study alone.
Ask hanisah and halilah darling to teman me makan at KFC.
Then sleep, then Shalehan text me to go dinner with him at vista point.
Eat prata.
Then wait till eleven pm shuuuuhadddaaaaaah reach.
Then i go home, cause dad kol me oready.
Sis failed.
Aaron had to wait for me.
HAHA.
in the end postpone to 9am tomorrow at KOUFU.
ok bye.
@ 8:41 AM
Monday, February 8, 2010 ♥
Terkilan hatiku melihat kakimu mengorak langkah. Langkah yang kau ambil
untuk pergi dariku. Mengalir deras airmataku menahan sebak. Biarpun pilihan ini
aku yang pinta,namun, aku tetap inginkan belaian terakhirmu. Aku rindu saat kau
merenungi mata subur ku. tawa hilai manja kita segar lagi berlegaran di
memoriku. Kau bagaikan pelita yang menerangi seluruh kegelapan hidupku. dan
kini, setelah kau pergi, ia kembali gelap, tanpa nur.
Maafkan aku kasih kerna tidak berpegang teguh pada janji dan sumpahku.
Bukan ini pinta atau mahuku. Bukan inginku biarkan tangisan air matamu mengalir.
Bukan niatku melepasku. Tetapi hakikatnya, tiada yang serupa antara kita.
Lembaran demi lembaran hidupku tanpa kehadiranmu aku lukis indah. Agar aku
akan sentiasa bahagia melihat senyum tawamu. Biarpun jikalau dengan musuhku, ku
tetap doakan indah buatmu. Kerna, senyum yang kau ukir di bibirmu, cukup membuat
hatiku girang.
p/s: nothing more i asked for, except for happiness. Within me and you. =))
@ 9:25 AM
Sunday, February 7, 2010 ♥
Things get tougher if it invovles someone not related at all.
You are taking things too lightly and apart from that, you took advantage out of me.
I tried my best to give you what i could.
To persevere from those fatigue and late nights.
But i got yelled and barked at.
Only if you could see through my heart and read what it says.
My ankle is giving me too much problem.
It cracks like no one's business. And made me shout in pain in the middle of the road.
I am bearing just too much pain.
Physically and mentally.
Im tired and exhausted of things that is happening right now.
Hate it alot.
To those whom may concern:-
Sorry for not replying your text.
I am having problem which needs my attention more than of yours.
Im sorry for being self-centred. But you are of no different.
Cause you problem is not given, but chosen by you, yourself.
use your brain to think.
and think hard.
HE knows the best.
And i believe it.
=))
@ 10:46 AM
Thursday, February 4, 2010 ♥
I just went for maths lecture just now...
Then met andy chia with aaron to get help with our C programming project.
A project that is killing us. ALOT.
I just hope Lim Chin Guan biasness won't put me to a fail. Please.
I simply get irritated, when it comes to love problem, people advice me, "Pray , doa to ALLAH."
Like c'mon, love problem, then want to remember HIM. Then no problem (...........)??? Fill in the blanks.
After school went to study at Sengkang Starbucks with wan and aril.
They are being very good students. HAHA
And hope, they will be a great help for my analogue.
A few more weeks to ace through before the real THANG.
Wish me luck people.
p/s: Someone is reading my blog without telling me... =))
@ 7:59 AM
Tuesday, February 2, 2010 ♥
Aku renungi langi gelap, kelam hatiku terasa. Sepi menyelubungi tubuhku.
Bagaikan kasihmu menghantui hatiku. Tiada ertinya aku mengecap nikmat kasih
kita, kerna aku masih tak berdaya untuk menagih kasihmu lagi. Biarpun mentera
kasihmu, kau ucap penuh syahdu, aku tetap keliru. Keliru antara hati dan akal.
Hatiku sering berkata kita harus bersama mengharungi danau ini. Namun, akalku
berkata, sebaliknya.
Bukan niatku untuk membuat engkau menunggu, tetapi aku yang masih belum
bersedia. Belum bersedia untuk meneruskan perjalanan ini, yang aku tahu,
penuh suka dan duka. Tak terhitung jemari aku, saat jernih keruh kita bersama.
Apakah ini namanya takdir ataupun pilihan, yang tak dapat aku elakkan?
Memori bersama terhapus jua. Seperti, coretan di pasiran, nama kita berdua,
di lenyapkan Sang Ombak. Pantas! Begitu pantas sekali ia pergi. Namun, apakah
dayaku menentang ketentuan Illahi...
Sabarlah sayang. Jikalau suratan yang menentukan, aku terima seadanya. Aku
redha dengan setiap yang dituliskan, sejak aku dirahim ibu..
Yes, i know, kind of tak gerek. But, this, i write, from the bottom of the bottom of my heart. More to come, cause, i am getting bored at home, at night. I am getting tired of aunty pek chin. I feel like quiting, but it ain't worth it.. It will put me to a great loss. Instead, i will persevere.
I need to mug like there is no tommorrooowwww..
@ 8:57 AM
Monday, February 1, 2010 ♥
School was fine.
I cut myself when doing the radius for turning.
Just a small part of my Mr Thumb's skin, peeled off.
It bled.
Someone wanna like it. Disgusting. EWWW!
Zul is being so irritating that he changed my cup of ice tea with fahmi's.
In the end, got to know, i drank his, and fahmi drank mine. =))
I enjoyed analogue today. And i did alot of miscalculation. I rely to much on calculator.
That even, 10 plus 1 = 10. and 225 minus 100 = 325.
How smart can i be, kan?
Tall guy, said that, I'm cute. HAHA.
Well, its a compliment. I double check with him. He did not meant it in the other way round. HAHA. i know, i no shame. hehe.
Tamimi has been a great friend for c++ and analogue. I just realised, he can be as talkative as i am! hehe.
I love the bond with my fellow mates. I wanna stick with them for this 3 years i am in poly.
Back home, chatted with hr faris. this is what i got from him.
Lovely, isn't it??
**Y just broke u with her guy, and go kenal kenal with alot of guy from cyber. Then she ill treat them, despite their sincerity in befriending them. But, she's single. Is she a playgirl??**
Someone asked me this. I said partly yes, partly no. Yes, only if she gives hope. And no, if she doesn't give any hopes.
I am waiting.
p/s: i really do not have the intention. =(
@ 8:04 AM
