Year end is going to come. And i realised how much days i had actually let it go. Just like that. But yeah.. here are some of the updates that i did not update.

First of, i was so shocked to see my O levels result. Something that i did not hope for with the very fair effort i out in for the examinations. And to move on to my poly life in Nanyang Polytechnic under Dip in Manufacturing engineering. Which, i admit, my choice cause of the practical work and all.

To meet nice and great people in my class like, Mas, Zul, Fahmi, Tamimi and etc. To those not mention in my class. I am very open to a very large social group of friends like, Bea, Nana, Wan and Co. They are a very nice bunch of people.

Plus, i found a new best dear friend, wardah. She might not be reading this, but i just would like to say how much i love and care alot for her. A very easy-going and sweet girl. Well, i miss nai'mah sayang alot. Plus hanisahhhh. and Piak. NOT FORGETTING MY BEST BUDDY or PARTNER IN CRIME, SHUHADAHHHHH.

Silat is grooving my life. HAHHAHAH. cant wait for friendly and open house performance.

Well, as for my love life...
Yad, dayah tak pernah sayangkan seseorang lelaki macam dayah sayangkan yad. Yad banyak ubahkan cara kehidupan dayah. Baek yang burok mahupun baek. Kisah kasih kita, banyak mengajar dayah erti kesabaran dan kesetiaan. Banyak pekara yang berlaku antara kita banyak membawa pengajaran dan pedoman dalam hidup dayah. Dayah tak pernah inginkan perpisahan seperti ini. Tapi yad banyak mencabar kesabaran dayah, seorang wanita berperasaan. Yad kongkong dayah. Yad tipu dayah. Yad mainkan perasaan dayah. 3 tahun kita lalui penuh dengan liku-liku kesedihan serta tawa gurau. Saat kita ke Vivo City, naek flyer. Dayah hargai setiap pengorbanan dan kebahagiaan yang Yad sematkan dalam hidup dayah. dayah tak inginkan perpisahan kita merubah kita untuk bermusuh. Dayah akan teruskan kehidupan dayah seperti sedia kala, seperti sebelum dayah temui yad. Yad, tahukah yad betapa dayah rindu saat gurau senda kita? Segala-galanya. Tapi mengapa yad mencabar dayah tiap tahun dengan tingkah laku yad?? Mengapa yad biarkan orang lain memburukkan hubungan kita jika benar itu adalah sesuatu pekara yang tak pernah yad lakukan? Yad, dayah tak ingin lagi teruskan hubungan yang dah retak seribu ini. Jangan paksa dayah. Sesungguhnya, yad tahu apa yang yad telah lakukan.. Perbaiki nya agar penggantiku nanti akan senang bersamamu......Aku iringi pemergiaan ini dengan doa dan salam sayang terakhirku...



But now,i had enjoyed my whole day with Wardah and Hanisah darling at bugis shoping and karaokeeeee! HAHAHHA.
Home till late midnight.



Take caring folks!

Tuesday, December 22, 2009 ♥

I know i have not been updating properly and always.
Work had been so hectic. Super tired. And i manage to help two people to get a place in Admiralty Guardian. I just hope they won't regret working there.

Anw, i miss...
-my days with you
-my Girlfriends. naimah, shu and piak.
-spending time with my cadets.
-arwah nenek and ain.

*no particular order.

i hate taisheng.


i don't need new contacts or kenalan.

i need to work tmr.
bye

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Friday, December 18, 2009 ♥

Yad is back from camp. I miss his long and untidy hair suddenly. Well, he actually did build up in a week and so. I don't know how he withstand the food in HTA and his silat training suddenly became a silat-cum-police training. I don't know if he is doing this to train us for national service, but to think of it, girls don't have to do national service.

I know and i could feel the whole love you gave me. But the thing is, do you even care about my feelings? My feelings that you yourself had played with a couple of month after we made each other ours. Its you yourself that you should us, who start the game of playing whose feelings first. I am tired of this. Real tired. But i miss those time.


=_=

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Sunday, December 13, 2009 ♥

When the someone that you had live and love destroy the hopes
that you built bit by bit over the years, it is as though a thin and long pin
poke through you bit by bit. A very small matter that accelerates to the
maximum. That isn't nice darling.

I had to spent my time wisely. To put the priority
right. So that there won't be a sense of regret in me. And all i will be
doing is staring in the space hoping that this won't repeat in my entire
lifetime.

I hope and wanna be a good daughter and sister. A loving lady
towards a lover. A nice friend to friend and a GREAT muslimah in the eyes of
ALLAH. But i always failed.

I just hope i could pull this through myself, without anyone
by my side. =))

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Friday, December 11, 2009 ♥

It has always been like this.. Whenever i am far from you... I began to miss you.. Then, i got sick cause i cried to much. Things are getting to a no good.

I am having fever.
Hot like hot dog.
Nose got cheese.
Mouth got water come out.
Head like spinning top.

Tmr silat at school.
NICE.

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Thursday, December 10, 2009 ♥

You walk away with my tears. As i swept it away from my cheeks myself.

School is getting tougher. And i hate my comms skills result. Stupid.
I did a good deed to two people.
And, ive started studying.

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Saturday, December 5, 2009 ♥

I am missing nurul darling.

My little tuyul gambret. hahaha.

She is away with mum and dad to melaka.

Din get to tag along cause having grading tomorrow.

Wish me luck.

Countdown hidayah.

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Wednesday, December 2, 2009 ♥

When the time comes, it is always hard to bid farewell someone that might leave you for the sake of their passion and all. You know and realised why he had to leave. and yet, you still shed your tears for them. i know for sure, i would miss his companion most. I will pray the best for your well-being there. take care, dear. =)

School is putting a heavy heavy weight on top of me. And i hate it.

Went to swensens to have an ice-cream. with yad. as a cum of bday celeb and bidding him gdbye before his leave. enjoy. =)

Lil sis gave me this as an eraser. for school.

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Tuesday, December 1, 2009 ♥

Tiada kata yang selembut sutera, selain dari pujuk rayumu. Tiada kaca yang lebih
indah dari permata. Katakanlah bahawa aku 'kan sentiasa mendengar pujukkanmu.
Jadilah permata yang berkilauan agar hidupku tidak 'kan gelap dan kelam..
Maafkan aku, aku tidak sesempurna bidadari. Tak pandai aku luahkan kata empat
mata, kecuali melakarkan isi hati di sekeping kertas agar menjadi pegangan yang
takkan lentur dari hidupku. Namun, ini semua 'kan aku jadikan pedoman, semoga
aku tidak kecundang....

I look and stared hard at the graph that i drew for maths. Real hard. Real hard, that i could even imagine the life that i am going through follows the straight lines and curves. When i am happy, leading a blissful life, the line goes up, and there goes my gradient. When i reached at the peak of every struggle, it curved. And then slowly after trying and attempting the obstacles i had to, the line goes down and so it my gradient. From a positive number.. be a negative digit..

I keep telling myself, peseverance is the best excercise. And do'a is the best sentence. Every moment, every single moment, i place a certain amount of trust in myself, that i can be whom i used to be. AND at that very moment, i thought of the gradient that suddenly turn negative.


These few days, i kept thinking about things i am doing.
Idk y. =.='

I tried my best to put on a smile so that everyone around me will smile. I have to promise myself, i will take this obstacles very lightly. And seep it through.
Yes, i know, i can.


AND THAT SUFIAH VERY GATAL TUKAR THE LINK AGAIN. -_-











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