"It takes a whole of lifetime to prove so."

I am getting rounder each day. So that i will go up one class. HAHA. I am motivated to do so, cause i saw this chubby round like ball boy at my werkplace eating chocolate ice-cream. HAHAHA. Then after work, i went to macdonald's and burnt my money on CHOCOLATE SUNDAE.. so mouth-waterinnnggg...

Its my first encounter when a CHINESE man say vulgar to a CHINA MAN! hahaha.
SEE wad i mean in my dunnoe wad month posT???

I had never knew this would go this far. As far as i-dunnoe-what.

I never knew seaweed shaker fries are delicious. Thanks hanisah sayang.

"Leave a while for a moment."

Thursday, November 26, 2009 ♥

WEEEE~

Back from work. Such a long day today. Had formal presentation, and yah, i forget to take alot alot of pictures of me in formal. HAHAH. The comment i had was smiley and confident. A little too little for content. I wasnt ready actually and i lost my focus because zul is enjoying laughing of what-i-dunnoe his reasons are.

Went to bugis yesterday.

The thing is, he still wanna ask me out before his N.S. and i wish and hope.. he will be doing great there.


Somebody is hinting something. scary, but i loike! HHAHA


Selamat hari raya aidil adha..!


JOM GIE SEMBELIH saper2 yang merosak dan menjahanamkan hidupku!

@ 9:03 AM

Monday, November 23, 2009 ♥

I love you alot and i know i will always do remember the good times we had together. No one ever appreciate what good i brought. Including you. Never do you thought of the sacrifices made for you. The time i give-in to alot of things just for you. I got nothing in return. Talking about everything... Yes, i miss the time we had together. And now.. i have to let it fade away..

Cause, there is no chances of us getting together again..



Goodbye love.

@ 10:16 AM

Tuesday, November 17, 2009 ♥

Today was okaay luh.

Went to school, escaped lecture. HAHA. Cause was so sleepy due to yesterday midnight celebration.

After school met Yad at dhouby ghaut.

He bought me a dress at This Fashion.

Brought me to Istana Park for photo taking.

Pictures not yet uploaded.

We talked about something there, but yet, my answer are still the same.

Went to S.G.H to visit his grandma then head off home with him.

I had this comment from one of my friend. "You dressed so lady-like. You walk very sopan. You react to strangers finding fault with you so maturely. But i just cudden imagine, u wearing a ring on your fingers with your torn knuckles. As a sign of seasoned punchings. HAHHA."

@ 8:49 AM

Monday, November 16, 2009 ♥

Kay guys and girls, spell 17 with me pleaaaase...
S-E-V-E-N-T-E-E-N!
Great. I am already 17! haha.
17 years of living.
Mum and dad did not organise any party like they used to, instead, they waited for me to come back work yesterday and celebrated with me. It was a surprise. WAIT! SUPPOSED to be a surprised. ASK ME WHY?!

Nurul, the kpo-iest family member of mine leaked out certain information to me. HAHA. She told me the presents that mum and dad and syira bought for me and all. HAHA. So we celebrated as a family.

GOT SABO-ED!

TODAY, went to east coast for dinner. Part of the celebration too..

Once again, thanks to those who made an effort to wish me. Regardless on facebook, text or even face-to-face. Thanks alot. There are just too many to mention.

To someone:-

I nak sangat sambut hari jadi I dengan u. Sambut tarikh kelahiran i dengan u. Tapi, macam-macam pekara yang menghalang. Maafkan i kalau i pentingkan diri sendiri dalam membuat keputusan untuk hubungan kita. Walau aper pun keputusan i, i harap sangat you dapat terima dengan rela hati. Sekian lama terjalin hubungan ini, i rasa bersyukur sangat ditemukan insan seperti u. Yang banyak berkorban apa jua. I berterima kasih atas sisa kasih yang u taburkan pada i. I hargai setiap kata-kata dan perbuatan u terhadap i. Biarpun yang telah berlalu atau yang akan datang, memori kita tak akan lenyap dari ingatan i. I tak nak bersama seseorang hanya kerana perasaan sayang dia yang tebal tetapi juga kerana tanggungjawab dan karaktur insan itu. I harap, jika you betul-betul nekad memilih hati i, ubah lah you.. I merayu kat you. I dah cukup terseksa dengan kenangan lama.. i ingin bahagia kali ini....

@ 8:16 AM

Saturday, November 14, 2009 ♥

Hello everyone.
I had this sickness that i could barely endure. Wake up early for lessons and tranining. The thing is that, i lacked of sleep. So, just now, went to silat. Met hakim and syahir at causeway. Tag along with them. I really really regretted for not attending training on regular basis and train consistently. I cudden even run as fast as i did before. I am a loser last week. But this week, i think i doing better but not fine. I know, and even my seniors know that this is not my ultimate best.

I spoke to one of them online just now. I told them the reason why i had to give up trainings sometime. I explained to him slowly and glad enough, he is very understanding. So now, i guess, he realised why i escaped training always and also, maybe, regretted for scolding me the other time. HAHA?

After that, i rushed home to get ready for work. At first i told Nurul to wake me up at 3.15pm. But i cudden tahan the heavy eyes. So i extended till 3.30. Aunty pek chin called me and asked me, why i am late.. SO i said i am from school. And i say i will reach there at 5pm. Upon realising the time i get to sleep is increasing, i slept till 4pm. ahhaha.

I still managed to reach on time.


Customer today got some very friendly. Some stupid. This time round plus sell is chocolate cadbury 2 for $2.00. So this lady bought 16 pieces. The next man saw her grab alot, so he say, he wants 10 crunchie. hahah. kiasu kan? Hakim, zaf and her bf pass by guardian. Hakim just said hello but din bought anything. haha.

Maafkan diriku

Aku tak sesempurnamu

Untuk terus bersatu

Demi janji yang kita bina dulu..

Kau buatku seperti angin yang berlalu

Yang datang kian pergi begitu

Bukanku tak sayangi dirimu

Namun, hakikatnya kita tak seperti dahulu..

Tiada kata seindah kasih

Tiada janji seindah setia

Tiada erti jikaku pergi

Jikalau kau masihku cinta..

Biarlah ia berlalu

mengoretkan kenangan kita

Agar kau dan aku

sentiasa ingat kisah kasih kita..

Labels : I miss you, love.

@ 9:15 AM

Friday, November 13, 2009 ♥

I just ended silat. Gelanggang was fun. School is getting boring and lesser people. *I wish that person meant what he said.* *OH!! Bring me out,please...* ^_^ ( gatal ).

Demo is nearing. I am having problem with the sabet. It just din want to turn and twist between my fingers. 'S'


Disgusting Zu. Black or White?

The skittles. ~

To sufiah sayang: NAH! I had uploaded the pictures we snapped! Take! AMEK! ahahha...

To someone whom i think you know who you are :

-Yes, i do still love and need u like i used to. Time change and go. Its ur turn to get busy later on. I know you won't be thinking of me much. Let us be with the flow.. and let fate decide our destination. Take care, love.

I saw someone reading a book titled, "Five love quotes for singles" and "Make all man run after you". Cute huh. Read that type of book in train and let the man look at you like nobody's business.

@ 8:20 AM

Wednesday, November 11, 2009 ♥

UUUUUUUUUUUUU!

SO SLEEPYY.

Yesterday after meeting my sayanggg for a movie and lunch, i had to go to work.

YOU KNOW HOW MUCH I FREAAKING MISS HER!!!! hahaha.

THAT IS WHAT I CALL REAL 'EFF' FRIENDS! hahaha. =)

We were the noisiest in the cinema.. And we talked loudly as if it was our WOODGROVE SCHOOL HALL. HAHA. And the most surprisingly, we wore the same type of BAJU! SWEET KAN!

PICTURES LATER!

Work was like...'S'

WANNA KNOW WHY?!

The full-timers at admiralty guardian make the part-timers like pig. But actually, they are no way better than us. I had to come all the way just to clear the fishing stocks that they ordered. And they stand at the cashier pos doing cashiering. The other one, talked on phone. They pinpoint at each other when they themselve did what they say to others. BODOH kan.

THEN THIS STUPID CUSTOMER, A CHINESE OLD FREAK walked in to our shop caryying a dog when at the door/window sign says, no pets are allowed. 'S'. WHEN I TOLD HER NICELY, she asked me, "WHAT IS THE PROBLEM WITH YOU?" Lagi stupid. Then not happy ask for the HEADQUARTER NUMBER. WAH PIANG!

Chaki told me to write a long long report with Cik Sanisah. LIKE!!! EEEE! i hate kiasuuu-es.

LABELS : If you had to forego... will u..??

@ 5:02 PM

Monday, November 9, 2009 ♥

Somebody's haircut is a total gross uh. Very disturbing to my eyes. HAHA.
Zuhilmi and Tamimi just cudden get sensitive oveer the sombebody hair. And they joke and make fun of it till they laugh their asses of in classes. First was about the picture on his profile. Then, it was his hair. To them, its like Tamimi its like mushroom and to Zuhilmi say that it is like helmet.

HAHA. Gross.

It was a very very long day in school. And, i still hate computer programming. Especially the teacher uh! hahaa. My friend knows what happen. LOL! It happened a week ago and yet i still can remember.

Well, i entered lab late today. I walked in like a star, and got greeted by a group of people. HAHA. how sweet. They were doing their things when they saw i walked in, they dropped their werk piece and began to curse each other. Stupid i shall say. From school, straight head off to work.

OK lahh.. Not so tiring, prolly, it is the cause of the short hours. But, my business at the pharmacist side is very2 good uhh. Till the computer lagg seh.




My birthday wish list :
* a digital branded watch (long-term use)
* a brand new shoulder bag
* a black long skirt
* a treat at seoul garden
* pimple lost solution (haha)
* ice-cream from swensen
* a pair of new clothes
* prince.


AHAHA. anyone willing to give?? hahaha




p/s: I miss those time. As i want to hear you everytime.. =)














LABELS : Ouh....

@ 9:06 AM

Saturday, November 7, 2009 ♥

SHE REALLY REALLY PISSED ME! AND! can you shut the hell up???

GOSH!

@ 11:06 AM

♥

I am gonna give this post a very long and formal post. And i know for sure, after reading this post, he will ask me alot of queston which i think, i will be ready for it. ;)

I had never thought that i am going to end this this way. I am afraid of leaving in the dull dull world with no one to turn to and love that i could get. He was the nicest element i had ever met since. And he is the sweetest sweet that i had every had. The best drug that mixes well with the alcohol to keep it going. He knows that i love him that very much that every single time i breath, i whisper his name underneath.

Back then, i had never went home alone without any company. From him especially. I never had to check my phone every moment waiting for his texts or calls. Cause i know, he will surely do it. But now, everything has to leave it to oneself. Though, this is the end to what i had call upon for, i still waits for his msges and calls. I miss the time we laugh our asses off to a very silly and funny thing that the both of us shared. I miss his warm fingers wiping off my tears when i weep that i am afraid to lose him. I miss the warmth and secure he gave me every single time i am by his side.


I miss texting him where i am going and all. I miss the night msges and greetings. I miss the whole thing i went through with him together. I love him still. But yet, as days pass by, the ego in me swells more and more, just that, it makes me even stubborn that i could lead my own way without him. I wanna be with him for all i could. but it's just too early for me to set my commitment and all. i wanna focus on things i wanna do. cause i wanna be the best. i had failed a lot of times. and yet, i kept persevering. But why, love make me so weak, that i even need a pair of ears and eyes listening and looking at me everytime i feel like weeping?


Now, i sleep without any wishes. He sleeps all by himself. Holding the anger,sadness and everything that he usually share with me and all. I tried my best to be the one that he had been looking for. But every time i'm away a few steps, i fell. Cause i always turn back to the past. to the past mistake he did. I know, its totally unfair, but..its just me.. If he were to love me all his heart. he should and have to accept the weaknesses in me... but, he just cudden. yet, he pull me down and tell me straight to me, that i am the biggest failure as if.



-i am tired of missing you. i am tired of wishing..but this is all i could do.. cause i kept waiting for you.... suddenly i felt, u need me no more...













labels: i miss you,love.

@ 9:26 AM

Wednesday, November 4, 2009 ♥

Communication Skills. Same lecturer with my last semester Personal Development lecturer. what a big big big bore to hear sumone talking about something that have got to do nothing with my life. AHHAAH. actually, there is lahh.

Everyone rarely listen to her, most of us including me.. facebooking, blogging, chatting and gaming. haha.

Yesterday was the very first time i went for my training in school after a long long time. Dun even tok about my timing. To run around the track 4 rounds is like WOW! hahaha. AND for the first time i gave up on track. FUHYOH! pls, my kicking. MAK AIII! rabak bangatttttt.

AND NOW! i am having cramps. Today, still got running and seni training. SHUCKS!

I dun need you to kip pondering on my past mistake, or now.

I am no one perfect and so are you.

If your presence is just to cheat my feelings,

please take a leave.

LABELS: im trying.

@ 4:42 PM

Tuesday, November 3, 2009 ♥

I din get a chance to blog about my celebration with him.

and there is a fullstop to it.

now, who is to be blamed?

Im sorry, love.

Labels: Leave.

@ 7:55 AM