Such a long break. Well, school started, so.. busy i very am.

The STC 2009 was okeh. Especially my group that i am in-charge of. ECHO. again haha.
They are very cheerful bunch of people. With lots of mischief. I do miss the craps that they crap about. The problems they gave me during the camp. Ya, first of all, the kids were giving me attitude faces, but after the team building game, i joined them to play, we bonded real well.

I know, i am bad by asking them to throw the food that they threw in the forest that was infested with forest ants/ army ants. I know i am being bad by complaining to the camp co-ord about the attitude that they gave me. Got them into real trouble. But after all, whatever i did or punish them, it is still for their own good. To be responsible leaders in the future. Pictures i took with them will be uploaded soon. Well guys, if you are reading this blog of mine, thanks for being a great bunch of people... Take care.

School for semester two had started. Gonna be a week tmr. And lots of things to catch up. I am aiming for better GPA for this sem. I wanna continue to U. for me myself. and my family. insya-allah.



















Labels : It won't take any longer anymore.

Saturday, October 17, 2009 ♥

Today was like.. i do not know how to describe the situation and events that happen today. Hubbie went for a holiie at Muar with his fam. I am missing him alot. And now.. things that happen in my family..Ugh!

"Knp susah sgt nak ader perasaan bersyukur dengan apa yang telah diber-NYA? Knp asek nak mintak lebeh dan lebeh? Di mana kah perasaan kesyukuranmu? Di mana letak nya perasaan simpati buat seorang insan yang tiada tempat berteduh? Yang tidak tentu makan minum nya? Mengapa berat sangat dugaan yang sedang menimpa keluarga ini? Apa hendak mu sehingga ini yang harus berlaku?"

Haish ntah lahh..
Hubbie, u tak ader.. I tak ader tempat mengadu kecuali rakan rapat i bie. Cepatlah alek.. Tapikan.. U balek pun... i bz bangat. i kat pulau ubin. reception pun tak tentu... Tapi takper... Dah smp...strait kol i... I am missing u alot and always.

Goodnight sweet heart.;(









Labels : I am counting down.

@ 10:29 AM

Saturday, October 10, 2009 ♥

Yesterday recee at Pulau Ubin was fun. Especially when the echo mates unite.

All the jokes and laughter, somehow, quench my feelings.

We had to cycle the way we want the cadets to use and I am supposed to lead the way lah kan. Lucky got Asri and Jia Tian to help me with.

Skali heavy rain like what seh. Have way to belatok hut. Damn wet.

Yes, i got dirtied.

After that, i rushed home to get ready for Uncle Faizal's invitation to his 'open house'. wore orange with hubbie. Brought nurul and syira along. Hubbie's mate says that, hubbie and are like television entertaining them. HAHA. You know why? Cause, hubbie just can't stop teasing me. And hubbie complained to umi of the bruise i gave him on his body cause of the pinches i gave him. HAHA. I'm sorry.

I made a terrible sin just nw, i kicked him on his thigh not realising his phone is in the pocket. I'm sorry again.

I was mesmerized by what he said last night. The sincerity he tried showing me. Yes, i know, and i get what you are trying to convey. but the thing is, can you prove it bie? i told you, i love you for who you are... Not what you are. My ego is swelling everything i am on moodswings. It is really irritating. I swear. I dun wanna be like what i acted like just now, but it was just to hard for me, to hold on to ur arms like i always did.

Now, because of the rain and all, throat is worsening. My nose running.

Labels : I nid food.

@ 9:25 AM

Friday, October 9, 2009 ♥

Definitely i got alot of things to blog about. About raya outings, about my daily routines. See. I don't even have the time to blog everyday. Basically, i am bored. But i am occupied. Real occupied. My tutee is having her EOY and so is my sisters. SISTERS. Both, i tell you. Mum and dad are having their swings, so, i am fairly affected.


Well, i am done raya-ing with my fellow friends, Primary, Secondary, Poly and even GUARDIAN mates. HAHA. How kiasu can i be? Pictures, LATER.


I know i am a little bit outdated about school's results. Well, i managed a pass. Alhamdulilah. And the time table for next semester are out. Holy crab. Two days, 8 am lectures. HAISEYY.



Then, guardian at admiralty had ended their renovation. And thus, its spring cleaning for all the staffs. Tmr, i will be attending perjumpaan raya at Bukit Batok, host by Uncle Faizal. Hubbie had talked about me also being under uncle. And so, what ever decision made by uncle, must be adhere with. So, wish me luck for the upcoming grading. Haish.


Tomorrow recee at ubin. Gonna be busy busy busy.












Enjoy.










Labels : I've grown rounder i guess.

@ 7:21 AM

Monday, October 5, 2009 ♥

ITCHY naimah changed her URL again.
Met the secondary school peeps. Okay lah.
Not much changes accept for marlina.. with more holes on her body.
HAHA. Plus their hair colour2.

Guardian at admiralty is on renovation, and hence there is a lot of dust. ALOT, i tell you.
I heck-care the customer and sneezed alot of time. Alot, i tell you again.
The contractor were laughing his asses out i guess. Raydene and aunty pek chin donnoe do wad at the back. I cudden hold on to my eyes anymore. damn heavy, HEAVY, I tell you.
So when no customer, i walked all the way to the back and talk2 to aunty. I tell raydene do cashier, then i terperanjat berok cause hubbie right beside me.

*(Miss chua and aunty inside pharmacist counter. I outside, talking2.
Facing them.)
Ms. C : Yes, may i help you?
*silence* i assume the customer shook his/her head.
After i am done talking. i turned, i jumped, my heart skipped a beat.
Hubbie was right in front of me, staring at me like. OMG. terperanjat
seh.

I miss him alot. Ate meltz at KFC. sure gaadoh.

I am really2 tired. Lack of sleep. really.
















Labels : Inconsistency.

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Saturday, October 3, 2009 ♥

This post specially dedicated to you, dear.

Every time i breathe, i got hiccups. Every time i cough, i sneeze. Every time i think, i think about NEXT. I cudden wait for 271009. But i am afraid, that i cudden get hold of it. I wanna be his birthday present again. The best one that could listen, talk and hold of you. The thing that happens often now is, for me to shed my tears. I no longer could stop it from strolling. But as each second past, i begin to get frightened and even petrified.





After the long message i texted to hubby last night after we hang up our call, i discovered a positive change in hubbie behaviour. He did not react like he used to last time when i talk about the freedom i wanted. The freedom i meant was, not to be freed from him, but for him to understand what is in need of me. I need the time not only stucking my ass at home when he is out somewhere. But instead to be able to socialise myself like i used to before i am with him. I know, i would keep on breaking his trust if he would not give me what i exactly wanted. I just need him to understand my everything. The whole thing in me. I do not want to regret on what may and would happen in later days. It has been 3 wonderful years being on this roller coaster ride with him. And this ride is the ride i treasured most. He is way off different from my previous. I am unsure if they might read this, but heck care. Hubbie did not only steals inches of my heart each second/day, but he also bring me to lala land. It a'int funny. Instead is is holy true. Sickos. Only Sickos thinks that it is false. He isn't mushy at all times. He isn't a bore. He is the only one that could irritate, scold, beat me real bad but he still manage to draw a smile on my face from ear to ear. Definitely. U think it is easy to do that? Have you ever had a couple that you could hit them real hard till they injured, like the pain when a heavy few tonnes of roller cages run on you little tiny weeny toe, but yet, you still manage to laugh your ass off after that? well, hubbie is the one that i am talking of. The one that I could, laugh, cry, venge my anger on at any particular seconds i need. WWW, have you ever heard a convo like this....

"I love you like hell. Burning hell, seriously. I fu*king love you alot." and
when its your turn to get muchy on stuff, this happens. "Hubbie, i would wipe
your tears even from a far distance." and he went on saying, "Batin ke?
(Black magic)". It really spoil my romance mood. HAHA.

"You are the torch that lit the darkest path that i walked
through. You are my amazing partner for this exciting and amazing roller coaster
ride. WOOhoo. I bet you know what i mean."

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Friday, October 2, 2009 ♥

@ 9:50 AM

♥

Sorry for the long and lost absence.
Well, went out with the old clicks.
Naimah, Lin, Izan, Haiqal, Acap and Zakaria.
Alot of things change lahh kann. Macam so fast gitu.
Naimah house is directly beside Pioneer Primary, i was so reminded of the past when i ran to my mum cause i missed her so the muchhh lah kan. Because she was busy with work and looking after late sister at hospital. And when i was punished because i din hand in my homework.

HAHA.
small kid those days.
Remember?






Naimah,
I read your blog and was very touch.
I may find or found a new best friend in my secondary school but no one can replace you. You may be irritating when you claim that you are not pretty. Because of this and that. But in my eyes, for years, i'd never feel jelak and muak looking at you. And especially the sincerity in you being my friend my darling over the years. You;ve grown so much that i treasure you more and more naimah. Do take care of urself dear.

Hubby, I had always wanted to be what other girls are. To be loved and
understand of their needs and all. I had never blame you for what you did. But
its the trust that i need. sometimes i feel agitated cause i cudden do what i
should be doing as a young adult. I wanna enjoy the meaning of teenager before i
really step into the adulthood. The moment i have to be ready for any
circumstances and all. I know, and you do know how much i really love you and
treasure you presence in my life. You changed the way i used to be. The one that
don't talk but shout. The one that don't walk in the most feminine way to the
one that able to walk with heels and handbag. The one that don't cry but yell.
The one that begin to understand the word lady, feminine, gorgeous beautifully.
I let you do what you wanna do, but why you just cudden understand me so? I
don't wanna regret in the later stage,dear. I really don't.

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