Thursday, July 30, 2009 ♥
Im in no mood to update.
Plus im sick.
Heavy headaches.
Cough like spoilt machines.
Hot like hot ice tea.
Head turn like the top!
Hubbie accompanied me to the clinic.
Without him i won't go plus the bills.
My eyes almost popped out.
HAISH..
So what if you are 19?? You are not matured. You act like one small kid.
Labels : Change yourself.
@ 8:08 AM
Sunday, July 26, 2009 ♥
Congrats.
I love HUBBIE!
@ 9:13 AM
Wednesday, July 22, 2009 ♥
Blogger is back to normal. Congrats.
Stupid.
COMMITMENT.
what does it mean to each and everyone of you? Is it the only things that you do in daily routine or the things that you have goals and purpose of doing it in life?
well, to me, since then, i had alot of commitment that i have to commit on. especially school. and since, i have indulge in working, i have to think of my family well-being such as my younger siblings small nitty needs. i am the eldest in the family, and i do know that i held the largest responsibilites on my shoulder. like, studies shud be my main priority, work, not only for myself.
And next up, silat training was always a miss now adays. I find it hard that to go for trainings and silat. I am very frustrated at my own t.m. She uses me when she needs my help when her son and daughter does not wants to do the move. At the first moment, i felt proud being chosen for my centre to do it. And now, when i know the real reason behind her picking me, i hate her.
i hate her attitude especially.
I need to think about it after all, she is my mum's friend. But i am regarding her as my closest foe.
In school, alot of gossiping and badmouthing about others. Its the way each and every of us handle it. If you know that you are a bloody good and high class man, stay away from low class people with low fishing standard than you are. And if you do lie to people around you last time, don't try it on us or even me. Cause its likely for you to pass.
I am tired. Lack of sleep.
AND yada yada yada.
LABELS : I hate you, fish.
@ 9:30 PM
Tuesday, July 21, 2009 ♥
What is rong with BLOGGER now a days? Stupid you know. Haywire here and there. Prolly, the group is trying to make it a better website. But, it is totally a not lah. Stupid tau.
school had been so dull today. alot of test coming up. Alex lim on his way to sabo me. making me have my answers all on the board. And alot of red inks. haha. autocadd lesson, tony ho is having his slacking time with us. he is totally a different individual from the first day i saw him. Charlie is having his PMS. and a lecturer winked at me. OMG.
training with hubbie was uberly great.
Labels: I wish he would.
@ 8:47 AM
Thursday, July 16, 2009 ♥
I got so bloody pissed of with blogger just now. I typed a very long long post and all it could sent was, 'Your request cannot be met.' I tried saving it as draft, and it was gone. ALL my effort went to waste. Angry you know.
Actually, i was talking about my lecturer gagging infront of me. Well, 4 out, 1 down. i know, i din even put the least effort to study. But its ok, there is always semestral papers. That's the end if i din make it through. Tomorrow, a pathetic 2 hrs with Mr Yap. I couldnt stand his lembut-ness, well, it might be better if i say, sopan lah kan.
Work has been hectic. I was always found to head banging and also snoring. HAHA. Well, it remind me of, the journey in train thru and fro sch. Never a day, that fails to have commuters sleeping wuth mouth open wide and you can see slimy whitish juice dripping from the side of their mouth. HAAAHAHHA.
Labels : Get with it.
@ 10:21 AM
Monday, July 13, 2009 ♥
I never wanted this path that i was given. That is full of hatred, grievances and even torcher. I never ever had wanted the choice to be so lethargic going back from school and even the next morning. But because of you, i give in to my eyes. I know i had no enough sleeps and rest. And all you could say was, i never understand what life you'd been going through. I am lethargic. I ain't a human machine. I do have feelings. And all those fault and fingers were on me. Never were they on yours. I knew i was never perfect, to be yours and them. I know i was not the right pick, cause i hurt you too much. I know i had made you suffer once, and i totally believe that karma exist. And if that's the reason of what i am going through now and today, please, save me oh ALLAH. I had never had the best specimen that could read my heart, my feelings even without hearing my voice. I know i was never ever correct and perfect, but is that the reason for you to blame me for all my misdeeds. I never planned or asked for all this unfortunate fate, but if this is what has been destined to me now, i accept it all my heart. But just give me ample strength that i need as my useful source. And therefore, end it quick. I may sound asking for too much. This and that, but what can i ever ask for that could end my problems and sorrows quick. I know i am not the only one that is suffering, but slowly, the innner me is giving up. Giving bit by bit.
C'mon, touch my heart and ask me, if i ever wanted all this. Look into my eyes how much i need the soothing care and voice to enhance my day. Hear my talk all the day that like a meal without dessert. Look again into the hands that are moving and legs that are stepping on the stepping stones in adulthood, whether or not they are right and all.
I am fussy.
Labels : End it quick.
@ 10:12 AM
Saturday, July 11, 2009 ♥
Back from barbeque with NYP silat team. Despite being barbequed under the sorching hot sun. Well, we din use the charcoal to 'burn' the food, but instead we use the heat of the sun. I was taught by my science teacher in secondary school about heat radiation and blablabla. A very fun session. Get to walk along the beach,accompanied the girls finding shells, starfish. Although i am not interested at all to collect them..
Whatever it is..
It is a tiring day.
Cut it short..
I despise yesterday events.
Labels : You are too much.
@ 8:42 AM
Thursday, July 9, 2009 ♥
I know that i am suppose to study instead of blogging here. But i cudden resist it. I read my November, January and February post where i blogged about my o levels preparation, receiving the results and posting result.
Everything seems so fast.
I was in the bus with hubbie just now. We were talking and counting years and months that we went through. And counting how many months more to our third year. Its just like 3 months away. 27 October. Can you imagine meeting someone on your birthday, and be with that someone till today? But, he said, it's going to be a hari raya day. Nvm, somehow, there will always be different days and plus, there will always be a next time, when you meet your love on the date that you first meet. The only thing is the name that i call him. Yad is for long time ago. And hubbie is for eternity. Till fate decides.
Last paper tomorrow.
Aisehh.
OKOK.
I promise hubbie that i will study. And so i will...
Wish me luck peeps.
Labels : Fast and Furious.
@ 7:48 AM
Wednesday, July 8, 2009 ♥
Work was ok for me.
Trained for 2 and a half days. And was left alone 1 and a half day.
Ok lah. Normal, fussy irritating customers had to bear with.
Just hope that kfc meals will have a barcode to scan so that, cashiers won't have any difficulties finding the button to press.
hope so~
And two papers are down.
Left 2 more.
And this happen if i and hubby are bored online.
@ 8:03 AM
Sunday, July 5, 2009 ♥
Everything seems not right
All those thing i did infront of your eye
you
said the thing
that pierce through my heart.
I thought i did you
proud
By which i knew i am never right
I knew i was wrong all this
while
When the other someone stands upright.
She made you proud
in her every move
She made you smile in every words
She made no effort to
make you laugh
She is the apple of your eye.
I am pleased when
she held her hands up high
to show the who is the ultimate
I weep
unsoundly
Telling myself, "It's too late."
You stop my passion
when i am young
You made me study every now and then
When I am at her
age,
You left all alone with no one.
I cook, I eat, I did
everything alone
I did what i could, just everything
I brought home the
victory that i worked for long
And all you did was,
to look at it with no
consoling words.
I cried, i felt useless
All i did was not
worth
I did it for you
Beneath my every breathe
i mumbled the name i
call you
which is the source of my strength.
It does not matter
any more,
what it does now is that,
I need you at least by my side
And
do know,
even if you don't count my victory
like you did on her,
I love
you....
@ 8:07 AM
Saturday, July 4, 2009 ♥
I cut-ed my hair. Oh dear, I miss my long wavy hair.
But, it got alot of split ends and it is very dry. And so, i have to cut it.
Super short. But still can tie.
Happy Birthady baby brother.
May all the wonderful greetings be with you.
Lead a blissful life despite the rough moments you went through.
I love you, Muhammad Haziq B Ariffin
@ 7:18 AM
Thursday, July 2, 2009 ♥
It all started when i meet sufiah up. We catched the transformers. It was an amazing video i shall say. Hubbie and aymeen tagged along. And after months of not meeting up, our stories are like years. OMG! i miss 4e3 suddenly. I mean it alot. most of us changed and went to different path. But still, we started off at the same starting point and ace through our O levels.
I seriously need to gain some weight back. I am putting hubbie in such a pressure that he dislike me to be 51 kg. I need another 3 kg. I tried my best by eating and sleeping afterwards. Have my dinner purposely at 12 midnight. But, urgh.
I hate home based e-learning. I find it stupid. Yesterday i just realised attendance are marked when we are online at 8 am all the way to 1 pm. I just realised i need to copy my nyp email to hotmail site and use my i/c no as the password to look out for other assignment. I just realised, that i need the autocad programme for this home based thingy. The instructions received are not complete. It totally irritates me alot. I mean it alot. Reports are done and submitted. But, respond i receive is, redo it to get better grades. Stoooo0000ooooopid.
I got a job, at KFC right in front of the Guardian i used to work at. One thing, i can't wait for the first day. The other thing, i am worried. I just hope, it will go well.
Im done.
Labels : Pure.
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