I am very very exhausted.
But i am trying my best to put my mindset in the right place.
Anyway, this is going to end.

I know all this while, i had been forgetting my steps.
But i swear, i did my homework.
I was on my way back from training yesterday when i thought that,
why i had choosen this way. eventhough its strengthening.
I do enjoy it. Cause this is my passion.
Due to the drills made during training yesterday.It resulted me to having 4 big blisters on my feet. Both feet.
I only manage to squeeze the juice on one of them.When i realise that it is damn painful, i did not continue on the rest. But its kinda fun to meddle with it. You know the jelly jelly type like that.

Today, first trial was a failure. I feel stupid.
And plus, i had always brought the groups standard so low. Real low.
I feel real bad that i almost wanted to quit and put another good player in as a substitute.
BUT I KNOW THAT THAT IS NOT MY ULTIMATE LIMIT.
And so i push and push myself.
Just like during the long run last week and today morning.
I felt that my stamina has gone down since i injured my feet.
Cause due to that injury, i had this phobia of running and sprinting.
Idk why, but the athletic spirit in me has fade.
After the self-push * if there such word* haha, the motivation from team mates and seniors,
i know, i did improve on my steps tremedously although it ain't perfect. And after this, is the small little details.

Thanks. And i will prove it to you, the passion that lies in me.


AND!
Assignments are flooding my mail.
Which means,
lesser free time and suker suker.

to Nur AMIRA:
one word that describe a whole.
CHING!

Otw to al-iman training just now,
i was complaining to hubby about my stomach that hurts from tahan-ing
to pass away the faeces.
haha. and hubby, i know, got irritated by the noise i made.
the whinning and the loud voice,
he then strangled the back of my neck.
Like what his friend say,
kiter nie aneh.
Kiter lah violent couple.
AND SO hubbie kater,
orang tak buat, kiter buat lahh.
Tapi, violent pun, kekal jugak tau.
Dah nk masok tiga tahun oktober nie..
KK, dayah dah berangann ehh.
*gatal*














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