Current mood: Moodless

Moodswings.

I just figure out that the reason i got so emotional and agitated easily is because of my moodswings. Cause today is my DAY 1. Some will only feel the pain second day onwards but mind is a few minutes after i realise im having my menses. And that also explain why i get angry easily at hubbie over small small things. The pain, URGH!

Ytd, i quarrelled with hubbie on some issues which are meant to be talk-nicely-ok-ready. But i din. I let the ego swelled in me. And hubbie cudden stand it. So we misunderstood each other. Misunderstood what the two of us are trying to convey. In the end, as normal, we discussed on the issue and back to normal tone. We joked, we laughed, we wish each other gdnyte and then we went to sleep.

Just because i want to pay back the redundant hours i neglected him, i continued to talked to him eventhough i was half awake. I hid it from him, cause i know, he would force me to sleep. Overall, i only get 4 hrs of sleep before going to work. So it explains why i could feel my head spinning like the top and i could barely put weight on my feet. I dragged myself to the bathroom realising i'm 10 mins away from the time i have to wake up to reach workplace on time. I got so fussy about the hairbands i want to put on to work that takes me 5 minutes plus to decide which one shall i picked. In the end, i walked to work with my hair untie and brought a clip with me. How stupid and fickle minded i am kan?

I reached workplace 10 mins late. Aunty pek chin nag but heck care. I walked over, mark my attendance, then tie my hair up before counting the float. With me half awake and un-energized, i keep on miscounting the money. Darn it. So i recounted the whole float again which requires to have 300 dollars total. It usually took me less than 5 minutes to count the float and arrange put it into my cash box, but today i burn 15 minutes doing the whole thing. I know why.

As i pushed the 4 dump-bins outside the store, my stomach is growling. I remembered that i had not taken my breakfast and dinner last night. So i walk in to the store and look for anything to eat. I found a packet of Julie's biscuit than i sapedek.

While i was eating, i rest my eyes. And get a 5 minutes damn short nap. i browse through the papers, but nothing caught my attention. Then i heard commotion just outside the store room. So i went out. This cina customer is looking for a cough mixture.

Cus: *talks in chinese and pointing to the medicine at the pharmacist display*
me: i cannot talk chinese.
Cus: Ohr.. i want the aktifit.
me: aktifit?? huh?
Cus: Ahya, napian lahh.*pointing
me: oh. ok. Actifed. Ah, phamarcist haven come. No one online, so cannot give medicine.
Cus: Ahya, i *cough action* want si liao.
me: go doctor.
Cus: Ahya, expensive lah.
me: oh. *walked off.
Cus:* swearing in chinese. talks to his friend.

At that point in time, i felt like shouting into his face saying, go si lah. Want si liao mahh! Stupid. It is by the law of government that we pharmacist assistant cannot take out any medications at the pharmacist display without the pharmacist permission.

And some bloody, big fat stubborn english speaking person, purposely irritate us asst to take out the medicine. No means no lahh. Bodoh.

I had completed 3 planograms in less than 1 and a half hour. Its fast and efficient, my store in-charge says. "If i ask pek chin anu do, want go home time then finish one planogram." I smiled humbily. I called my sister to bring my sanitary pad to my workplace when i realised the time arrived. Well, i wrote about my menses openly here,cause i know, no guys would read it except my girlfriends and hubbie. Hubbie knows it cause of my moodswings. It is so nice of my sister to bring food for me also. So, i lahap the food. Then wait for a couple of minute before going home time. Hubbie fetched me from work. And singgah my house. To disturb and make nurul jealous.

He purposely say sayang loudly and me and stroked my hand, then nurul will shout in outraged. When both of them good terms, nurul showed him the fishes she brought from the lokang. it is her attempt during her school expedition at the lokang. Then hubbie realised 1 miserable dead fish.

--No matter what, i love you...