I twist and turn on bed. But still my eyes couldn't shut. I kept on thinking, how unfair i could be. I am someone that look up and prioritise pride and justice. But i couldn't keep it in hand. Just because the ego in me that swelled. Though i teared alot, till my i blocked, i still kept saying, no it wasn't. I am selfish.

I got up late for work. But still got my butt there on time cause i din take my own sweet time tying up my long and tangled hair. These days, i became so lazzzziiiiieeee to even comb my hair after shower. I wonder how long will i take to untangled it back.... =/

At work today was fine. Except for this one old stupid apek that coughed infront of my face. Sometimes i think, these people really need a tight slap from me. Ahh tkper, on my last day of work, i would give attitude.. AND I MEAN IT! ATTITUDE! I want at least one of this stoopid irritating self-centered customer feel a pain in the pantat at least.

After work, i met hubbie and his mum for awhile. Lepas kan rindu.. Kejap pun jadilahhh. HAHA. Then asked dad to fetched me to pool. ITS RAINING HEAVILY AND MUM STILL PLANNED TO GO FOR A SWIM! haha. Pictures will be uploaded next time. But sadly, i din join the fun. Cause im bz sleepingggg...

Draft 1 DONE.








I still want my cone!

Saturday, March 28, 2009 ♥

TIRED and STICKY.



Just got back from jalan-jalan with family. Long time since we go out jalan-jalan. COz, each of us confirm bz one. So, yesterday was 27 March. 2 years and 5 months with hubbie. I love you sayang. I dun wanna lose you ever again. I sayang u sangat-sangat tau.



Silat. OMG! Double horsekick. I subside into something i dont know i guess. HAHA. Because of hubbie asking me to hang my legs on the wall, balancing only on my hands, i end up with cramps all over my body. And plus, i did a super good back thrust after long time i never did. Hubbie was saying, tornado kick all the while. Its not that i cant do, but i forget seh. HAHA.



Hubbie, you owe me ice cream. Cornetto. Chocolate one! =)



Before silat, i have lesson with my bakal adik ipar. HAHA. tak malu.* Than we share secret. HAHA. A picture. After that, silat time. Then went off.



At night, on the phone with hubbie, he helped me think on how to torture the kids for camp. HAHA. I thought, i was the most 'meanest' creature on earth. But actually, he lagi mean seh. HAHA.



Mummy bought me a gift. I and sis and daddy plan to get mum a ring for birthday. With the salary money, i spent for my school properties ehh? HAHA. I blanjer myself, one skirt, one shoe for school. At least i satisfy myself. Now, left money for my laboratory equipments and suit. HAHA. Confirm i wear funnie.






















Happy birthday shuhadah!

















Hubbie has a nice waist. =)

@ 9:23 AM

Thursday, March 26, 2009 ♥

I quarrelled with my lappy.
Guess what.
The big fat tan geok appear at Guardian Admiralty.
As usual, confirm find fault one. She and her click. But who cares. She still havent grow up yet lah. Still with her stupid old prangai. Still want find fault with me for no reason. But for one apparent reason that i couldnt get it is dat, why, she and her friends always got something against me.
Oh i know why. Its because that:-










































I am cuter than they are. Definitely.

So, if i am cuter they must be jealous of me right???
If they jealous of me, confirm not puas hati kann?!

HAiyah. Si beh jia lat people.

Well, i am known as the policewoman at admiralty place, cause, i caught an apek stealing 2 set of wanbao and shin min. HAHA. When, everytime i got back from work, i always complain to hubbie about what happen to let the stress out. Cause, doing customer service can make my head go botak. This stupid unreasonable people can never understand our situation. Always want thingse easy for them. KANASAI. Anyway even i havent end my story, hubbie knows my story. Its always the same story but different people. And when im fishing angry, i will just walk off and say, wait-ah.




Stooopid webcam doesnt work. Im missing hubbie. Its either the msn or my webcam. Whatever lah.















---I MISS YOU...

@ 9:22 AM

Sunday, March 22, 2009 ♥

My throat is sore.

My nose is not tired from running.

My head doesn't get dizzy from spinning.

My hairs on my body aren't long enough to trap air to keep me warm.

It explains im worn out.

TOTALLY.

7.30 in the morning till 6 in the evening. Standing at the pos doing pop corn blabbering the same dialog and showcasing the proper courtesy. Stupid customers that don't understand the meaning of hold on and no life people that have no patient in life. Pity them. Got to know Admiralty Guardian will have a new store in-charge from HQ. DIE. Idk why when i read the notes left on the pharmacist desk from Armi, i felt a little discomfort and sad that she's leaving. I had fun working with her. Gonna miss her badly i bet.

I slept on the sofa before bathing back from work. When i woke up, i was shocked and stunned thought i was late for work. Cause basically, i was dreaming. I laughed and slapped myself. In bathroom, while i was brushing my teeth, i accidentally brushed hard and the toothbrush went in control that it landed not on the floor but actually 'brushed' my forhead. i don't bother to wipe it off, and so it made my eyes go 'spicy'. Weird, i did'nt laugh or wadsoever.

With this kind of voice, i hope i won't be doing cashiering tommorrow. Plus i dont have to liase with any customer that wants to get medication from the pharmacist bay. This makcik at work call me, rock, without realising that, no rock on this planet can talk. LAME. CRAP.

AND YAH, one of my youngest customer just now, a male aged 4 to 6 like dat, so chubby. So cute. And i bet, he will be a hunk when he grow up later. Not only dat, he reminds me of one thing. I hope, i could get a cute and round child like him in the future. So that, when he gives me problem, he would hae more fats to spare me. Cause, theory and facts say that, stress may changed us. Irregardless of size and behaviour or character.

Plus, anyone needs to do floor polishing for your house flooring, tell me. Cause i know someone that can polish your floor till you can see your teeth shine. No need kiwi no need neutral. How i wonder if this person can polish boots like he polishes the floor infront of guardian admiralty... Such a big fat stupid pain in the arse guy.






-- Hubbie says, i have a romantic voice today.

@ 8:20 AM

Friday, March 20, 2009 ♥

Work was fine.
Today we managed to keep the store clean and a little bit free from boxes. I just wonder why would they order stuff that are still full and not ordering stuff that customer had been asking for plus,the occupants of the empty racks. I think what hubbie said was right, im overworked. Just now, early in the morning, at my workplace, i felt that i had difficulty to breathe properly while i gasp for air like a baby that got suffocated. I felt my head was spinning like crazy that i cudden even stand straight. I told aunty lai lai and she said there's paracetamol in the first aid kit at the pharmacist counter.

I went looking for it like a hungry baby asking for food. At that moment of time, i regretted not listening to hubbie. For working tremendously without any off days in a week. I admit, im exhausted. Really exhausted. My throat was so pain that it add on to the burden im carrying on my head. I thought i was having a slight fever cause i felt cold even the air-con was low.

Back from work, i met mira for class with me. Helping with her studies. I hope she could make me and her family proud of her achievements especially. fail now, its ok. learn from it. Then went for silat at hubbie's glanggang. Hubbie brought his friends along. And as usual, he keepps on disturbing me. But, i still love him though. End of class, he gave me the surprise he got it for me. A pink long gorgeous skirt. The one that ive been eyeing on when i went out with mum. I would want to go out and put on my best look with him. I love you sayang. Alot. thanks for the gift and especially the love you gave me....














---I injured my feet again during the friendly spar again!

@ 7:51 AM

Thursday, March 19, 2009 ♥

I forgot to blog the pictures of nurul and her pet fish.

And haziq disturbing daddy while he is playing game on lappy.

Work was so bored. And the burden on my tummy make my life difficult. I suppose.

I spent my time doing something not worth my time. To ease my pain..

Back home,

while watching k-nite,

i did a good deed by helping my dad to tampal the koyoks i brought from workplace free of charge. I shall say the salonpas i brought is like.... ALOT.... sangat...

With the words spelled, "IPIN FAT" on the koyoks....

Then today i save my money by not buying my sanitary pads. Coz, i got it for free at home as guardian is giving away free sample for their own guardian brand... I cant wait for pay day!

Mitting hubbie sayang tommorrowww!!!!

Excited!

@ 6:57 AM

Wednesday, March 18, 2009 ♥

Current mood: Moodless

Moodswings.

I just figure out that the reason i got so emotional and agitated easily is because of my moodswings. Cause today is my DAY 1. Some will only feel the pain second day onwards but mind is a few minutes after i realise im having my menses. And that also explain why i get angry easily at hubbie over small small things. The pain, URGH!

Ytd, i quarrelled with hubbie on some issues which are meant to be talk-nicely-ok-ready. But i din. I let the ego swelled in me. And hubbie cudden stand it. So we misunderstood each other. Misunderstood what the two of us are trying to convey. In the end, as normal, we discussed on the issue and back to normal tone. We joked, we laughed, we wish each other gdnyte and then we went to sleep.

Just because i want to pay back the redundant hours i neglected him, i continued to talked to him eventhough i was half awake. I hid it from him, cause i know, he would force me to sleep. Overall, i only get 4 hrs of sleep before going to work. So it explains why i could feel my head spinning like the top and i could barely put weight on my feet. I dragged myself to the bathroom realising i'm 10 mins away from the time i have to wake up to reach workplace on time. I got so fussy about the hairbands i want to put on to work that takes me 5 minutes plus to decide which one shall i picked. In the end, i walked to work with my hair untie and brought a clip with me. How stupid and fickle minded i am kan?

I reached workplace 10 mins late. Aunty pek chin nag but heck care. I walked over, mark my attendance, then tie my hair up before counting the float. With me half awake and un-energized, i keep on miscounting the money. Darn it. So i recounted the whole float again which requires to have 300 dollars total. It usually took me less than 5 minutes to count the float and arrange put it into my cash box, but today i burn 15 minutes doing the whole thing. I know why.

As i pushed the 4 dump-bins outside the store, my stomach is growling. I remembered that i had not taken my breakfast and dinner last night. So i walk in to the store and look for anything to eat. I found a packet of Julie's biscuit than i sapedek.

While i was eating, i rest my eyes. And get a 5 minutes damn short nap. i browse through the papers, but nothing caught my attention. Then i heard commotion just outside the store room. So i went out. This cina customer is looking for a cough mixture.

Cus: *talks in chinese and pointing to the medicine at the pharmacist display*
me: i cannot talk chinese.
Cus: Ohr.. i want the aktifit.
me: aktifit?? huh?
Cus: Ahya, napian lahh.*pointing
me: oh. ok. Actifed. Ah, phamarcist haven come. No one online, so cannot give medicine.
Cus: Ahya, i *cough action* want si liao.
me: go doctor.
Cus: Ahya, expensive lah.
me: oh. *walked off.
Cus:* swearing in chinese. talks to his friend.

At that point in time, i felt like shouting into his face saying, go si lah. Want si liao mahh! Stupid. It is by the law of government that we pharmacist assistant cannot take out any medications at the pharmacist display without the pharmacist permission.

And some bloody, big fat stubborn english speaking person, purposely irritate us asst to take out the medicine. No means no lahh. Bodoh.

I had completed 3 planograms in less than 1 and a half hour. Its fast and efficient, my store in-charge says. "If i ask pek chin anu do, want go home time then finish one planogram." I smiled humbily. I called my sister to bring my sanitary pad to my workplace when i realised the time arrived. Well, i wrote about my menses openly here,cause i know, no guys would read it except my girlfriends and hubbie. Hubbie knows it cause of my moodswings. It is so nice of my sister to bring food for me also. So, i lahap the food. Then wait for a couple of minute before going home time. Hubbie fetched me from work. And singgah my house. To disturb and make nurul jealous.

He purposely say sayang loudly and me and stroked my hand, then nurul will shout in outraged. When both of them good terms, nurul showed him the fishes she brought from the lokang. it is her attempt during her school expedition at the lokang. Then hubbie realised 1 miserable dead fish.

--No matter what, i love you...

@ 5:55 AM

Monday, March 16, 2009 ♥

ALOT of things to update.

I know I have extremely itchy fingers to change my URL again. Seriously for now, I cudden make up my mind. Hubbie gave me some thought, but its too long. I want something short and sweet and something that still resembles us. But I cudden make up my mind lahh. takper, nanti pun boleh. *haishh

New blogskin cause i got bored with the old one. I am just so fussy that alot of blog skins that i browse through din manage to catch my eyes. I am looking for one simple, mature and easy to update skin. Most of the skins I browse through were the childish-childish ones. Cartoons. Its not that I don't like them, but its kind of irritating to read my own post with the stupid but cute cartoon character at the foreground.

Mum and dad bought me a lappy for school. But still, I need to pay back after I get my pay for this month. There goes half of my salary. Not to school books but school lappy. Ergh!

I miss going out with friends. With my best buddy. People like Nai'mah, Sufiah, Shuhadah, Shazlin and blablabla. Sometimes I think my scehdule is too tight. But, what to do, I need to strive harder for my future month later. At least, it could lessen my parents burden to hold responsibility for my expenses. I'm sorry friends, that I had drifted further from you guys. Not that I wanted, but it happen.

Work PLACE are on my nerves now. Such a big pain in the arse. Want to know why? Alot of gatal people. But, I enjoy the free meals and blablabla. Thankiew. I told hubbie. Thought that he would get angry, but instead, he joked about it. That makes me respect him more. He changed alot since the first stretch of our relationship when he used to be so jealous over something small. But now... WELL DONE sayang.

I am so scared of my upcoming competition. I don't want to upset nor dissapoint hubbie/instructor. But, its just that, I'm lack of time. Totally lack of time. Add on, my confidence level... Urgh! I hate it this way. I seriously do. Cik sofi demands me to go for more training. Its not that I don't want. But, I have to think of my transport fare and etc.. To me, just wait and see how the flow will flow..

In a month time, i will be quiting job. But I am thinking, who will bear my daily and monthly expenses. It will surely add on to mum's burden. Haish.

I think, I'am done blogging.

@ 7:55 AM

Wednesday, March 11, 2009 ♥

NEK YAH TIME

This days ar, working so si buay jia lat wan ahh. So tired leh. Make my legs go kangkong like dat. Aiyo. Stand one whole day in front of the cashier pos like do pop corn like dat. But, wad to do, wan earn money must work long and longer mahh.

Like what my mak friend say, "U work more longer, more money u get". True. Correct. But tired like what earn how many oniie. Not worth it lah. Quiting soon. But tink back ah, i quit, how support my poly life ah? Wahliao. U see ah,i feel dat my garmen like dodo like dat. You wan to noe why or not?? Because, part timers student like us, they must not cut our salary put inside CPF leh. We student work, earn, enjoy mahh. Where got think far far about buying house lah wad lah.. Dat one later one day then can talk wad. IDK lah wad u olang pk, tp ahh, ini olang pk ini macam. Haiyah macam-macam ahh. Banyak macam.

Low pay nemind, now u tink. U beta tink ar.. I tell u.. I work customer service, everyday consperm got customer meradang here and dere like crazy. Aiyoh, kene malu like dat infront people alot ah, face also lost eh. They mat salleh call, humour, eh no. Humiliate leh.

Summore got this one aunty, the screw abit rosak. Everytime come guardian bring the cane point infront cashier face then say, "ezyhealth magazine got ornot?! Eh i ask u! Got or not?" "Aiyahh the burung my house ah,noisy one. Kannot tahan. Got magazine callme hor"
then, she walk like dat, nvr give number how to call. *slaps forehead*

They know some fresh graduate like me part time workers, they purposely increase the bus and mrt fares. Wah die lahh. Must top up exlink 10 dolar minimum. Then top up handphone summore. If not ahh, no life gituk. But think back ah, last time nenek datok moyang time no handphone still can hidop. Aiyah, chuldren nowadays only noe how to bergayer only.

Oklah, now i want go rest2. Tired like wad. Kannot take it lah. Tacaire ahh ppl.

@ 8:37 PM

Tuesday, March 10, 2009 ♥

IN MY OWN WORLD

Great DAY out today.

First went to CPF board with mum.

Realising everything so lambat, mum knows i m angry when i keep looking at watch.

"Ajak yad datang sini lahh kak. Sorry lah korang nak kua kene ikot mama. Mama takot jatoh nti tkder yg nk tolong.."

When yad arrive we end the transaction at DBS.

Must go CPF nyer tmpt balek.

Then the lady go for lunch.

Memandangkan semua nga kebulor...

MAMA blanjer makan kat BANK-uet.

Menggunerkan duet 2 million.

HAHA

Sumer dah settle kua ngn HUBBIE.

KITER TENGOK criter ip man.

BEST gilerrr. FREE mahh.

haha

B, i tol tol syg kat u. I miss u manyak2.

Sebab kiter dh lamer tk jumper ang bermanjer.

Jangan tinggal daku. =]

Sayang kamu. :)

@ 7:04 AM

Saturday, March 7, 2009 ♥

SICK.

I know it has been a long time since i updated.
Its not that nothing to update, but, i got no time.

Photo taking done.

Sometimes i feel i am so small in this big big big world.
Whats the reason? - Im totally not sure.
I had a weird dream, that i cant afford to remember back eventhough after so many attempt to sleep back.

After that dream, the next night, i slept with two blankets on me, with 1 pillow on my leg - like sandwhich like dat. And the fan switched off. Yes, i was superly cold. Very cold that i still shiver. under the blankets.

The next day, i woke up with my head so heavy, my eyesight got so blur, and i fall back to my bed when i tried standing. My head spinning like the top. I barely could breathe. Asphyxiated.

For two nights, my body temperature is 38.7. None of my family members said, " Wanna go to Doctor? " I feel....

I had to struggle through 3 sleepless night before reaching my recovering stage. That stage when i'm drenched by my own sweat. With the fan directly at me. I feel like stripping myself down, pull my hair off my head. Seriously.

Npcc sec 1 swearing in was great.

Thanks HUBBIE for understanding my priority...
I love you.
Looking for-WARD for our DATE. =]

@ 4:13 AM