I had always wanted to blog about everything in my life. But as soon as i open this posting page of mine, i went blank. TOTALLY BLANK!

I and boyfie had been so busy with other commitments like our work. Usually its either, he work, i free. I work, he free. But now, both of us are so tied up with our work. Our time with family. Yes, i terribly miss him. So much. I miss the time i use to spend with him, beside him. Talking, nagging. About everything i know, about everything i want to talk about. I know he get bored easily on what i am talking and blabbering about. But he seems to put on the sweetest smile, looking at me talking. Then he will go on teasing me, sulking, to make the gap among us closer and closer. He is willing to sacrifice his time, for us. Cause i know, although he is tired back from work, silat, he still kol me up at night, ensuring we get to talk before going to bed. I miss him badly. I miss his company. I miss our time going out together. I miss everything about us badly, that i cried because i fear,i will miss this forever.

Sometimes, things between us happen without us realising. Add on, we dont even manage to stop it from happening. But even if we could stop it from happening, it still happens. Do you realise it? Like, the fights between you and someone you love. You could or even manage to stop it, but it still happens. The disagreements, the squabbles. I wish it won't happen. Whenever it happens, i force myself to think that, all this happens for a reason, which is, attention. I need your attention too,dear.


Work, sometimes it add on to my pressure. I just wish, i could handle this for another few months before i start to school again. Talking about school, i couldnt imagine that i had start to feel that, i miss schooling days alot. ALOT. But this time round, new school, new teachers, or shall i say lecturers? New friends. New obstacles. AND new future.

I miss hanging around with my friends. My childhood friends. I miss talking to them n all. Ya, sometimes, i feel uneasy about them mitting up each other, but not me. Just because iom busy with other stuff. I just wish, there will be a time, for all of us.


Silat,i am so stressed up with seni. Inter grasio otw, n yet i am not ready. Plus, my centre not stabil. No proper learning take plce. Really irritating. Macam nak tukar glanggang. Nanti org kater, kacang luperkan kulit lahh plak... tawakal je lahh... i wish i can bring something back fr boyf. but its toooo much fr me....


p/s: i miss you. alot.