I noe im the worst ever creature in the earth.
The one who never keep things in place.
The one who misplaced things easily.
The one who do not appreciate anything by all it means.
I swear, i put it there.
I swear i din sell it and enjoy the profit with some jerks.
I don't do things that i noe will turn my flesh and blood, meat and skin to non-halal lady.
If i do, i would rather stop doing good deeds and do something that i noe i would enjoy in life and suffer up there.
I ain't that stupid.

I am sorry i hurt you.
I am sorry i misplaced you gift.
I noe it is somewhere in the house.
And not somewhere in the pawn shop.
I was to caught up to remember where exactly i placed it.
I am confident enough that it is in this house.

But please, dont accuse me of something i wont do.
That wont even strike my mind.
I may be useless-evil creature on earth, but im not the useless-evil creature in ur life.

Oh GOD,
whatever in my way seems to go the hard way.
how do i succeed when every steps i take there is an obstacle?
i had never wanted this way, i had never asked for this.
but everything i did, seems not right.
who am i actually?
where do i stand in this earth of YOURS?
I had always wanted to carve the lovelyy widest smile on them,
but everytime i almost reach out my hands,
i tripped and fell.
i failed attempt after attempt.
i could feel the fear that enveloped the bottom of my heart.
all i cud say is, Im sorry.
I wanted to repent, to turn over the new leaf.
but why must this happen??
i want to succeed.
i want to make you feel proud,
but instead you say, you cant be bothered if i pass or fail.
should i give up or should i push even harder?

I need that long warm hug of yours. To make me feel secured and safe under your love.
I love you mum, dad.

Night class was fun today.
I cracked my brain to do maths, although not in the mood.
Aizat, yana and other of their gang asked for helped in maths.
Lucky they asked on the topics that im capable of.
I realised, i had forgotten alot of formulaes.
haha.
i nid a conducive environment for study.