I just cudden bear it longer. I dun wanna hold on to it even longer.
I just wanna this to end and i cud soar freely. I cudden wait 9 August to come.
As i wud be performing for NDP. But then again i dun wan that day to cum so fast coz i noe i wud miss the fun and gags with the buddies.

9 august marks the start of my intense revision.
9 August marks the end of saturdays training which cum to think of it i have my seni training on fridays.
9 August marks nearer prelims and O lvl are.
9 August also marks the coming of his flight to brunei.
9 August marks the day to M.t O lvl result.

Tomorrow course 8 to 6.
Then kenduri.
Im gonna be so tired then.

I something amiss but i dun noe wad. I just dun feel rite today.

p/s: Zulfikar, its not that i dun wanna reply to ur msges. But whenever i reply to ur msges, it will end up to us quarelling bcz of u being so sarcastic of y i dun wanna be with u although u had waited years for me. Its up to me to reply who's msges, its up to me to be with who, its up to me to make my own decision and its realli up to me to care for who i wanna care. For all u noe, u hve no rite to tell me to do what i dun wanna do. Yes, ur bdae is coming but please, i have my own choice to go out with u or not. Please stop thinking of enjoying for now. Ive lost sumone i loved, close to me. And i realli dun wanna cocked up my thoughts about irrelevant things like having relationship n stuff. To me rite now is the shape to my fututre; O levels. Not finding a soulmate; for goodness sake.